I Don't Even Give a Damn Anymore.

She doesn't text me.
She can't keep a convo goin
She's cussing pretty much all the time.
At least she actually thinks about college and her future.


She never calls.
Why am i still around?
Still got a small crush i guess.
Slowly fading away now.
Breaking up crossing my mind.
Definitely not helping the stress from school.
I'm going to college in Alabama and youre still in high school.
Not gonna work for long.
Something needs to change.


I had a crush on her for the longest time.
She kept playing around the whole school year.
I asked twice, got rejected twice.
You're still my best friend,
Guessing feelings still around.
You got a man now
That was a heartbreaker
but im acting like i dont care
Thats a lie.
slowly trying to move on.
Not Working.

I dont know anymore.
Peace.
No Love =P

Cause of Death.

I'm Standing here filling up my Tank at the Gas station
Drip.
I'm stuck driving around in a car that's considered ancient.
Drip.
A car Pulls up, Mercedes-Benz with a convertible Drop
Drip.
A fine looking woman steps out, tight black jeans and a very exposing top.
Drip.
I walk over to her, and I introduce myself real quickly.
DripDrip.
We talk for a while, and I ask if she wants to get some dinner with me.
Drip.
She says "Sorry, but i have my boyfriend coming later to get me".
Drip.
She opens her front door and gets some matches out of her benz
Drip.
She Says "I'm Sorry, but we can just chill and be regular friends!"
DripDripDrip.
She lights a match, lights a smoke, tosses the match on a ground and says Bye
Drippity Drip.
Into a puddle, which smells somethin like gasoline.
Drip.
I look at my car, and see my tank overflowin' on me.
Drip.
The gas lights, and makes its way to the tank of my car.
Drip.
All i can think is "This must be the worst of all my days so far."
DripBOOM.
Damn, i think i just got burned, by the girl and the Gas.
Now i'm thinkin " i knew girls would be the death of me,"
As I lay here, just dead, on my ass.

Could it Be...?

She never fades away from the main flow of my mind
She has a mansion in my head and stays there all the time.
Even as I write this poem or silly little rhyme.
She floats around,for some reason that I can't seem to find.
Is it because some four-letter word that represents deep affection?
No, that can't be why, because i'm not part of that lucky section.
Never Was and Never will be, i'm just not a lucky guy.
But i'm still living, so i just look up to the sky.
Looking at passing clouds and the Sun going by.
Falling into a trance, as the Sun burns my eyes.

Oops, Got a little off Genre.

I don't want to accept it, because i'll end up to regret it.
She doesn't have an interest in the type of personality i'm reflectin'.
Call me anything you want, call me hopeless or desperate,
Because at the end of the day, i still see her as my best friend.
I'm really thinking right now, it could really be "that word".
The word that ties the knot, the word that should never be slurred.
I mean, whenever I see her smiling, my vision gets blurred
Like the world around us is passing by the princess and this nerd.
She knows exactly how i feel about her.
Well, maybe not exactly.
I have no confidence to tell her everything,
because i'm scared of the reaction.
I've always been alone like now, but i'm hoping that she'll change it.
But rejection is another fear, and nothing's gonna change it.
Why should you people care, though? You all have lives to deal with.
I'm just another lonely dude, in touch with all his "feelins".
I wake up in the morning hoping today is gonna be different,
but it ends up like any other day, and she never ends up missin'.

Peace&Love
=thenerd~

The Nerd's Introduction.

1st Post on this site!

What Font is This?

Eh, Whatever.

Well, To Introduce Myself,

I'm A Technical Nerd/Geek/Skater

My Name is Dapo (dah-poe).

Mostly Known As Dj To Friends.

I'm Kinda Nigerian, Mostly American.

CT Native.

I Like To Work With My Hands, Mostly Build/Take Apart Stuff.

I Like Writing Music, Mostly of the Hip-Hop, R&B, and Pop Genre.

As Said Before, I Also Like To Skateboard.

Not Very Good At it, But I'm Slowly Learning.

One Thing That I Think I'm Pretty Good At is Editing Some Photos.

My Tools of the Trade would be PhotoShop CS3 and PaintDotNet.

I Try and Draw but I Don't Really Get "Into" It.

I Love Taking Pictures.

I Love Looking Good Clothes-Wise, But Who Doesn't?

I'm In College.

I'm Single.

According To Most People, I Have A Big Head,

Which Apparently is Unattractive to Most Girls around Here.

I'm a Shy Kid.

I'm a Dreamer.

My Plan For the Future is To Be Successful,

And Gain Enough Money to Travel to Japan & Brazil.

I LOVE Reading Mangas, Which are Japanese Comics Translated To English,

And I Read About 70 Different Ones Online.

I Guess You Could Call Me A Naru-Tard, Lol

I Love All Types of Music, Including Some Rock, Rap, Hip Hop, and Pop.

But Never Country.

I Have a Slightly Low Level of Self-Esteem,

Only Because I Was Always Put Down @ The Private School I Attended For 3 Years.

But I've Changed Since Then, A Bit.

My Parents are SomeWhat Controlling and Over-Bearing.

I Don't Drive, but I'm Turning 18 on December 13th.

Did I Mention I Was Born On Friday the 13th? Well I Was.

I Hope I Get My Car Soon After My Birthday..

Anyways...I'm A Friendly Guy, Not Disrespectful,

Unless You Make Me Mad.

I Don't Like To Curse Alot, But A Few Slip Out Every Now and Then.

I Like Girls, Alot.

I Make Any Girl I Date My #1 Priority.

I'm Not Desperate, Even Though People Think So.

I'm Very Conscious About What People Think About Me,

And I Sometimes OverThink Things With People's Certain Actions

I Love Horror Movies.

I Was Never Scared or Paranoid Of Any of Them,

That is, Until I Saw 2009's Flick, Paranormal Activity.

I Couldn't Fall Asleep Until 12:30am,

And I Went To Bed at 11:00, The Same as Every Night.

The Movie Made Me More Noticable Than Usual

of Every Small Sound in My Room, Which Sorta Freaked Me Out,

So I Turned My Closet Light On and Slept. Lol.

I'm Addicted to Texting, Only Because I Got it in December of Last Year.

As You Read So Far, I Don't Stay on One Topic For Long, Lol.

I'm Sort of An Emotional Person.

Yes, I Cry.

Yes, I Sometimes Act Upset For Dumb or No Reasons.

And Yes, I Have Some Minor Problems,

But I'm Mostly Always in A Good Mood,

Which Could Make Me Either A Slightly Hyper Weirdo

Or A Huggable, Lovable, Brown, Non-Fuzzy Teddy Bear.

I Don't Play Any Sports,

Because I'm Not Good At Any.

I'm Alright in FootBall,

And I Have My Moments in Basketball.

I Suck at Soccer, But I Absolutely LOVE the Sport itself.

I Go To One of The Coolest Churches in CT.

I'm Part of The Coolest Choir in One of The Coolest Churches in CT.

My Choir Director is Awesome...and Sorta Cute, Lol,

But A Couple of Years Older Than Me.

Her Brother, The Drummer, Is a Real Cool Cat.

I'm One of About 6 or 7 Tenors,

And We're All Somewhat Like Family,

Even Though I'm The Odd One Out,

Because I Live in a Different, but Nearby Town,

Even Though I TRY to Be Their Friends,

But I'm Leaving For UConn is a Year and a Half,

So I'm Not Trying As Hard Anymore.

I Think I've Ranted on Enough For My 1st Blog,

But I Love Typing,

And This Site Helps Me Get My Ideas Out.

Check Out My Art @ TekkNerd.DeviantArt.Com

Contact Me on FaceBook or Myspace!

My Name is Dapo B.

What's Up Bloggers/ Viewers?

Later!!